I am SO SORRY !!! I am slack and bored and in a bad mood... Uuuuugh... But anyways, I am sorry for not getting those picks up for you. I have to get that damn printer/scanner thing hooked up for you as well as /...

Everything sucks. I'm wasting my life away by doing all these useless things that won't help me much. We weren't originally born to do all this (by "this", I mean get jobs, do school crap, worry about who your going out with, ect.)! So bored. I was in the midst of all this worrying when I thought to myself "What the hell am I worrying about?". If I say something like this to someone who can easily be concerned about me (i.e. my father) they'll probably get me some kind of "help". At least when I have to explain my thoughts to someone like that. Then that "help” will feed me BULLSHIT that I don't care to hear about because they were the ones bullshitting themselves this whole time too! AAAHG! This sucks. And , I am real worried about you. I seriously hope you don’t have to get “help’.

I wonder what will happen when we die. Will we be in an alternate universe? Heaven? Hell? Or be drifting into an infinite black hole for eternity. What ever the case, I hope it's better than here. And don't worry folks, this isn't a suicide note. But just think... Whether it is heaven or a blackness we immigrate to in our deaths, every living person on this planet now, everyone we know, and everyone we don't know, will be dead in approximately 120 years. Dead. Dead. Dead. Dead... But I think we are already living in the same hell.

Think of all the tragedies like death, robbery, illness, broken hearts, poorness, homelessness, anxiety, depression, all of which go on in our day to day lives. Isn’t that a bit much for our innocent kind? But we suffer as well as nature, and nature didn’t even do anything. We are bringing the hell onto ourselves. But maybe we were meant to destroy everything. Maybe because it will take so long for everything to destroy itself, that we were meant to do it. That would suck real bad. Or all bad things destroy themselves and we are the terrible things. There are a lot of theories. I could ramble on and on and on and on and on in this subject. Just saying… We really aren’t that innocent. Nothing can or will stop us, as long as there are those who don’t care. We are the demons of ourselves.